reality

my oso visited me at work today. and we ended up discussing about our expenses and target money to make our wedding dreams into a reality.

and yes, the discussion is quite stressing since wedding budgets were never not extravagant. that is, if you plan to make it as close to what you really wanted. and we want it as close from what we wanted. we wanted to be ideal and realistic at the same time. hehe, i don't know if you get me. but that's as close as i can describe how we wanted our wedding to be.

we're not really struggling. we both believe we're not. we just don't want our emotions and happiness to solely guide us in making this happen. we want to be collected and reasonable too. to avoid being surprised that we need to pay so much and we'll have so little.

but i believe that we'll conquer this. i actually feel good being worried about our expenses. i'd rather be paranoid than make decisions out of happiness. haha, i'm weird. XD but what i find weirder is that i can blog like this while i'm listening to maroon 5 rock in rio 2011 concert. haha. XD

and what i don't understand more is how this blog is not turning out to be just like the other brides' blogs. i'm suppose to be posting reviews and opinions on suppliers or posting pictures of my DYIs right? well, i feel like i'm not that type. maybe i'll give it a chance when my schedule is jampacked with wedding stuffs? --but i doubt i would chose blogging over getting things done. haha XD

but i will really really do my best to be a normal bride in preparation. i will post pictures and be happy and avoid blog posts like this. =))